Hi everyone. So how’s your year going so far? Last I wrote I made all these resolutions and was very optimistic about the New Year.
And then, the proverbial sh*t hit the fan. Everything at the job has exploded and the fires are erupting left and right to the point where some of my co-workers are turning into backbiting teenagers, full of fear and uncertainty (or, have they always been this way?). My manager is stressed out and in my opinion seems unsure how the staff has ceased to behave like adults and perform like the professionals they once were. Our business has encountered a MAJOR transition and while the transition was planned – it occurred prematurely and with NO warning. So, we all are scrambling, panicking and some of THEM are resisting the transition with such intensity that the rest of us have had to manage the brunt of the fall out – because we have been able to maintain our composure. But, believe me – more of them are on the OTHER side of the line; twiddling their thumbs, complaining, creating junior high school drama and basically creating a hellish work environment for the rest of us.
And that’s just WORK! I won’t go there with you about my husband who can be a complete pain in the tush, the kids are at each other’s throats, daycare increased tuition, the school teacher thinks my 9 year old son doesn’t relate to children and seems to think he needs more play dates on the weekends. (Hey lady, who has time for a play date every Saturday? Unless it’s called the “let’s clean the house, do the laundry, service the cars, go grocery shopping – and have time to exhale” – play date… then, it ain’t happening. Pa-Lease! )
When we had all that snow, and I was in the house with the kids for those several days, I thought I was losing my mind. I mean, how many Doritos and hot chocolate can one child eat? I’ll tell you – 1 family size bag and 3 packets of the instant stuff and then he gives it ALL back to you on the floor on the way to the toilet!
I knew something was askew when I couldn’t wait to get back to the hell I had started to call work!
Have I mentioned – I turn 40 this year? And, if I ever thought I was in perimenopause, these last few weeks have made it real clear that I AM.
I’m wondering if the planets shifted in mid- January, if the tides are low, if Murphy’s Law is in overdrive? Uhh, not sure – but let me just tell you – that optimism I waved in the air at the beginning of the year – is low and I’m dragging her behind me.
I’m still holding on though.
I’m wondering if any of you have been experiencing crazy types of resistance or drama or just strange occurrences in the last few weeks. What is going on in your lives?
I know one thing for sure. I dedicated myself to practicing peace and not holding onto the past and staying centered this year. And, I have been tested… to the point of “barely sane” but, I’m committed to it. I might be visiting Mr. State Store and seeing what the Chairman has for me more often – but let me be clear – I’m holding on.
It is the times of adversity. The times of pure chaos that tests a person. Doesn’t it? It’s during these times that offer the opportunity for you to make the decision to give up, give in or make a way.
I am okay though my friends. I am aware of the craziness and I am not internalizing it. I realize there are times when things happen – all at once. And, that if I just try to keep a sense of humor and my wits about me (and maybe a bottle of Cab) and remember that this too shall pass – I’ll get through it. It sounds familiar – but this is life. It’s cyclical. There’s the good, the bad and the ugly. In rotation… the difference is for us, is that we must learn from ourselves, our adversities, and the crazy stuff – so that when it comes around again – we can become quiet-centered and focused on how to organize ourselves (our families and even some of our co-workers) enough to work through it.
Yup. That’s my two cents. I hope all is well in your worlds. And, (if applicable) I hope you live close to a State Store.
An order has been placed…
Some of the names of the characters in this depiction were changed to protect their identity. And, **Disclaimer: This writer is in no way advocating irresponsible consumption of alcohol.
